Day Care= Sad Mommy

Taking my kids to day care sucks. Today was the first real full day that they were there. It was awful. J dropped them off since I was running late. I'm always running late. I'm not sure why. I think I try to get too much done before I make it out the door. "There's time to put these in the dish washer." "I can start another load of laundry." I think I have a problem.

Any way, it sucked watching them pull away with their dad and not kissing them 1 (or 5) more times before I left. I guess there is just something about leaving your children with strangers that is very upsetting, go figure. I'm hoping that I will be ok after a few weeks, even though I know I won't be. Hope springs eternal.

Don't get me wrong I like the day care place. The ladies are very nice, it is clean, they have been fed and changed and played with. The ladies like my girls, I mean really who wouldn't. They are freaking adorable. I just miss my babies when they aren't with me. I miss them so much I hurt. I also worry constantly. Are they still breathing (umm mostly likely or I would get a call)? Do they miss me (probably not)? Did they eat (the ladies are going to let them starve, L wouldn't allow that)? and so on and so forth. We will all survive, just with a few emotional scares for mama.

Day Care

I wrote up a whole post about this yesterday and for some reason Blogger decided it didn't want me to talk about day care and it deleted the whole thing. I'm trying again today.

Ok so I'm a working mom and I have working mommy guilt. I don't like being a working mom and I am in aww of all women that have managed to live this life for years. It is a hard job. I wake up at 5 am to get myself ready. Wake the girls at 6 to feed them and get them ready. Then a family member had been coming over to take care of the girls. I go to work at 7 and get home at 3 and start my mommy job. I play with the girls, make dinner, clean up and get everything ready for the next day. It is all nonstop and I feel like I don't get enough time with the girls.

Well today my babies started day care. My school district is letting us work from home, and luckily I finished all my work so I am at home alone. It is a very weird feeling to be here by myself. That hasn't happened in what 20 weeks. I don't think I like it. Although I have caught up on tv shows.

J and I dropped the girls off this morning for a short day at day care, so that we could figure out this new routine and let the girls meet their new teachers, etc. I get to pick them up at noon and I am counting down the minutes. The school is very nice and the teachers are wonderful, but I miss my babies and I worry about them when they are away from me. I guess I will get used to leaving them, but today I cried all the way home.

Only one more hour.


Here is our picture of the day. My little girls after eating.